I used to approach Sunday with an “oh gosh, my weekend is over and I have to face another crazy week” mindset. I’ve always had the tendency to settle into what I like to call a “Martha mentality”: No, I don’t have time to sit at the feet of Jesus, I’m busy over here juggling everything else, and resenting every minute of it.
Over time I’ve realized what a waste of a day I was making of Sunday’s. Spending my whole day stressed about a new week and how much I still had to get done to prepare for it. Sure, it’s challenging to be a mom of five, to teach them from home, to juggle work and housework, etc. We are all there! But my type A personality has taken a little bit of a beating through the years, as I’ve come to realize, there is ALWAYS going to be a list of things I need to complete. I will never truly get it all done. So what? I have to throw my hands up a little and think about what really matters. My to-do list is important, but not if I’m in a constant state of anxiety over it. First, what will help me face this week? A quiet moment, a good worship song, time spent first with my God and second with my family.
The list can wait. Eventually, it will get done...or at least most of it. But at the end of the day, God doesn’t care if I’ve finished the laundry or organized the school room or planned the week out to every detail. He just wants me. And so does my husband. And so do my kids.
Take a breath. Take a moment. Stop and look around. The most important “things” I can do today are to focus on my loved ones and to focus on recharging. I am always going to tend towards a Martha. But as my life seems to speed by, and the kids get bigger every day, I’m beginning to see what value there is in being like Mary. Truly, sitting at the feet of Jesus is where I can find the only true rest and strength to face the week.
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